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SUNDAY, December 25, 2005
As i was thinking...are we all sensible


i am sure i was just thinking about the SENSIBLE peoples
are we all sensible? lets see

sensible people know the importance of time.
Imagine there is a bank which credits your account each morning with
$86,400. It carries over no balance from day to day, allow you to keep
no cash balance, and every evening cancels whatever part of the amount
you had failed to use during the day.

What would you do? Draw out every cent, of course!

Well, everyone has such a bank. Its name is TIME. Every morning, it
credits you with 86,400 seconds. Every night it writes off, as lost,
whatever of this you have failed to invest to good purpose.

It carries over no balance. It allows no overdraft. Each day it opens
a new account for you. Each night it burns the remains of the day. If
you fail to use the day's deposits, the loss is yours.

There is no going back. There is no drawing against the "tomorrow".
You must live in the present on today's deposits. Invest it so as to
get from it the utmost in health, happiness and success! The clock is
running. Make the most of today.

To realize the value of ONE YEAR, ask a student who has failed a grade.
To realize the value of ONE MONTH, ask a mother who has given birth to
a pre-mature baby.
To realize the value of ONE WEEK, ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize the value of ONE DAY, ask a daily wage laborer who has kids to feed.
To realize the value of ONE HOUR, ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.
To realize the value of ONE MINUTE, ask a person who has missed the train.
To realize the value of ONE SECOND, ask a person who has avoided an accident.
To realize the value of ONE MILLI-SECOND, ask the person who has won a
silver medal in the Olympics.

Treasure every moment that you have! And treasure it more because you
shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time ... and remember that time waits for no one. . .
Yesterday is history,
tomorrow a mystery,
today is a gift, that's why it's called the present!
happy thinking if u do it at all
ha ha ha ah ah
noreen wishing u luck stay in the light of LOVE
Live long and Prosper!
Noreen Sheikh


Tuesday, December 27, 2005
As i was thinking...i am not ready 2 be alive
i was just thinking
i am not ready 2 be alive
not 2 think how 2 think
HE says i didn't justify with HIS rights
so what did 1 do ?
what i didn't do
what really i dint think ?
i have few Qs 2myself
* What does it mean to be fully human?
* What is our 'ultimate task'? As we are, after all, primarily
spiritual beings having a human experience, rather than merely human
beings having 'spiritual experiences';
* And what must we do to bring this process about?
lets see what is alive in us we are trying 2 present death2 ?
blood because it contains living cells, blood is alive.this much i know of life,
what about flesh & bones?
what about the soul? "Who me?"
no answer at all !!!!!!!!!!!
When I ask this I point to my heart.

it says i am alive 2 ,rather i am THE ALIVE ONE.
how exciting the conversation can be?with the alive one
Without a thought I know where my "self" is located.

- The fact that I have a physical center, in the heart, is a great
help. This is "where" my true identity lives, or where I can be aware
of the Real Identity. It is my real identity, not that which is
created by thought,but which IS
The closer I am to it the closer I am to my self. It is not the pump
that we are talking about. There is no organ.
It is the touch of the Absolute reaching into our relative existence.
So it's also where the relative me can experience the One Self that's me.

The time of sitting in silence each morning is dedicated to returning
to the heart,2myself.
We notice then those things that draw us away from the heart. We
notice and let them go, and try again to return to our center.

- To return to the heart is not the journey (of realization). Rather,
the journey begins in the heart. Then there is journeying closer and
closer to the real Identity. It's a journey of self-knowledge, the
knowledge of experience rather than knowledge that comes from books,
for example, or from theoretical understanding.

- So, "WHERE CAN I START?" This is a question that needs an answer.
You can start in your center, where you really are.what you really are.

- We must not forget when we leave this room& go on & on with life
during the rest of the day to try to be aware as constantly as
Awareness happens in the heart.
And unless we find the beginning of the journey, in the heart, how
will we make the journey?

enjoy the travel,aamiin
noreen with best


Wednesday, December 28, 2005
As i was thinking...my search for truth and meaning
DARYYA KOKUZEE MAIN BAND KARNA[to set the ocean in a drop]
yaa my wasif sahab says "ocean in the drop"
drop in the ocean, all same, same same, whatever , you have given me
a good name
i gave myself a name2 when i meet wasif sahab" KHOJJI" i liked that name
than when the KHOJJ{seek}
started coming 2 me i had 2 quit the name.
i was of the belief that
jo piassa kunee k paas jata he woo piassa hi kum hee.[when the thirsty goes tothe well for water he is not thirsty enough]
piass to tub he k matluub talib ko khoojta huaa chala aaee.[thirst is when the seek comes to the seeking in its seek]
ghaar baithee wisaal.[meeting even when you are sitting at home]
hur lamhaa mulakaat.[meeting every moment]
my search,research i didn't know i was looking 4 something.
not even i knew i had switched lanes,
i didn't even know there were
lanes , path,
paths different paths.
i never knew what people were asking me when they used 2 say
Since when you are on this path?
i would say which path?
some would say go back or don't go any further its 2 difficult 2 be here
u must have heard of rabia only so be ware u cant do it being a
it would appear so funny,when people took me as a female they were
always stuck with my flesh & bones nobody had the potential 2 see that
i was a soul not the body.
but what i learnt from all this was that
MAGAR SUB KHALII HAIN [but all have nothing ,they are just empty vessels]
who were asking me 2 go back were no where they had just heard of the path.
i am ,was happy i had not.
this is the sad story,
i was going 2 places 2 people didn't know why and i would know that ,
i could tell what it was all about.
if u be, want 2 be? will be . u r.
than & there .
that's about all there is.
its always 2 tiring 2 be vocal.
i am happy i cant explain much.
but you make me talk some times i don't like it when i write or want 2 write.
& of course i am not the best judge
& of course HE knows the best.
i am noreen
u take care

Live long and Prosper!
Noreen Sheikh


Friday, December 30, 2005
As i was thinking...the desert knows not the count of the stars that grace its lonely darkness


.The desert knows not the count of the stars that grace its lonely darkness

jitnee zaree utnee sitaree
jitnee sitaree utnee bheeroon k baal,
jitnee bheeroon k baal utnee ultimately,hazoor pak k ummati.

so which desert are we talking about.
are we talking of the knowing of the desert,
that is!
it doesn't know arithmetic.ha ha ha ha
or the unawareness of it?

i am sure if we cant count the stars,
we hardly know that we are grace full
and we if know our grace we are aware of the counting of the
participant,that made us grace full.

actually i am not aware of myself,the beauty of the self,the grace of the self
so unaware of my own self!
how can i expect my self 2 be aware of the self of other?.
so how would i know other than i

i am not lonely if i am THE DESERT
i am a
[put 2gather of all the ZURAA]
so how a compound of particles be alone
& desert is never dark bkz each particle is a star as far as i can c
the finest star,the most sparkling
the closest 2 u
more close 2 us than the stars above
they understand us more than the far away stars
bkz they can be seen
dropped again
picked up again & so on

i am sure deserts & Skys are the only being that are not dark lonely
and unaware.

take care
noreen with best wishes


Live long and Prosper!
Noreen Sheikh


Monday, January 02, 2006
As i was thinking...there is a curve called failure........

i was just thinking

there is a curve called failure, a loop called confusion, speed bumps
called friends, caution lights called family, and you will have flats
called jobs.

But, if you have a spare called determination, an engine called
perseverance, insurance called faith, and a driver called God, you
will make it to a place called .

Do good, and leave behind you a monument of virtue that the storms of
time can never destroy. Write your name in kindness, love, and mercy
on the hearts of thousands you come in contact with year by year, and
you will never be forgotten. Your name and your good deeds will shine
as the stars of heaven.

may God keep us all in the light of HIS love
sum aamiin
noreen with good wishes


As i was thinking...knowing yourself is knowing God
knowing yourself is knowing God
 is it the same??

the love and the loved and the one who loves
we are from Him,as my hand from me
so my hand is somewhat me.
u hold my hand and u say i am with noreen
u hug me and u say i hug noreen so!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

before and after whose oneness there be more
more and more and..........
oneness and oneness in multiplicity.
so the gift,the gifted and the one who gifts is the same
and if the gift is mistaken, for the giver,
this is not a mistake,
if understood the oneness of existence.
when there is nothing except him than
what is the fight about?
and the confusion about?
and the discussion?
taking Him as Him and me as Him
this is not believing in carnation
because He Himself says,He blew in2 me His essence .
so did He created Himself 2 be understood by Himself when He said
"as I was a hidden treasure and I wanted{loved} 2 be known,so i created the universe"

did He create or shed a part or particle of HIS 2 experiment?
or did He separate Little of Himness from to see the show?

the Qs are the distraction,
if we just try 2 look inside our self
we will never come up with Qs
than we would rather see
than speak.
the Qs itself is a veil

the concealment is the veil,
like sun,
we know that its there very much
but the brightness ,
the expansion of the brightness unable us 2 see the source
same is the example of His existence
His being everywhere is the curtain
so this makes it easy
the realisation makes it easy2 see one with the one
the Prophet says "i know my Lord by my Lord"
its the same
he knows the he and his Lord are the same
so what makes it easy?
is the realisation
is the feel of the connection
that i am the shed part of His being
and i am some what He, and not He at the same time.
if we understand this than we understand what meeraj is all about?
"we were close enough than the closest"
what does this mean may it be spiritual or physical
this is knowing yourself
knowing God
same same.
so fanaa
what is it?
it is just the realisation that i am Him
and baka?
it is the the realisation the He is me
but again one is realising
one is realising and being
fana is realising but because of ones lack of capacity one stays where one is like an invalid
he cant help anyone
that poor fellow cant even help his own self,how may he be of any help 2 anyone?
what a waste of realisation.
one needs 2 be JAZIB E NAZAR after being in JAZB not MAJZOOB
than the one who realises ,he may be at the same station as a fna being,
may be lower
but he is the one with the potential 2 absorb,
to be
he is the real being
God helps those who share
may it be a bite of bread
and when its Him,
will He let go of the one with the potential?
no He wont
this is the one that He wants or appreciate or help more
because this is working for HIM
who brought with him what he got is the real,wali
a real being,trying 2 make Him KNOWN
actually he proceeded with the knowing business,assessing his capacity and capability first
he didn't want 2 eat up all the tajali by himself but share
he is the real he.
he deserves 2 be He
the real ashraf
ashraf al makhlook
legible for khilafat.
he is the legible khalifa,2 hold what is put on his shoulders.
he is the one who is interfering in the oneness.
its totally 2 him accoding 2 him how 2 go about it,know himself 2 know god
or know God 2 know himself
same same.

he is the one who also get the realisation that
my getting the realisation that i am Him or i am from Him doesn't make me GOD

but as ALLAH says that we cant reach Him but2 His essence[names]
may be one may be many[names],names or essences.

and when i realise myself as Him
getting 2
or realising
or seeing one of His names
or many of His names,
that is as He wants me and my want.{feeling Him as one or more of His essences}
like how is He present at a particular time ,
at a particular place
with a particular being
and my being in that same moment makes me that same essence.
now here in this coffee shop in this extremely hot,killing weather
what outside the shop people are getting wet
is rain and breeze these people getting this rehmet
without any cost and qualification
people are at the recieving end
irrespective of that they are,
so getting in2 this moment and realising it as AL RAHMAN, here and now
the way it is for them for me for whome so ever
i may see Him as this rahmet than
i am the part of this rahmat,
and this GODNESS.
if i may feel the rahmat the way He wants me 2 feel than i am God in that moment.
because than we are at the same level of feelings.
for that spur of the moment,Him willing ofcourse.

the more you talk of yourself as HIM,
so no degrading no underestimating of ones self
and one thing more
no more taking yourself as the elevated one or thinking high of yourself
you are not taking yourself as other than Him,and not Him at the same given moment

i am the part and participle of the whole
from the whole of the whole
whole of the part
i am that part.

a stupid will say if all is He than the waste is also He.
now if we talk of carrion, or refuse
we are not taking Him as one {God forbid}
but i say that also makes me at least
remember Him.
because i would say this is the outcome of a healthy creature of His,
who ate the blessed provided food which was 2 be eaten.
it ate
with the will of God than
what was extra was thrown out as an automatic system.
alhamdullilah iam all full and relieved at the same time,all praise be 2 Him
all in the remembrance of Him what so ever
understanding comes from Him ,when and how and how much.
its for him 2 decide
lets do our job and let Him do His
all is ATTA,all comes from his will,not from books or people.

knowing comes from inside
knowing your self
that makes you know Him
which is no other than you and not you at the same time
what a fun


posted by noreen @ 3:15 PM 
Sunday, January 08, 2006
As i was thinking...sharing is caring
khud aap apna taaruf hawa bahar ki

so sharing is caring at times sharing is sin at times
sharing is parting with an amanat
sharing is just sharing at times.
we are not aware of this that whatever information we have
of the spirit,
or the knowledge,
or the spiritual knowledge
we may share
it is just like i tell u
there is a flower with red colour, its big, it smells sweet
now one has 2 look for its self
the item flower
the size
the color
the smell
this is just the information
knowledge is what a flower is all about
when? a flower is a flower ?
what significance is the smell?
what is colour?
what are the roots of smell and color all? this is knowledge.
the seeing,
the knowing,
is no ones property
it cant be shared without the permission of the Higher knowledge
at times not with your own self
you receive it but you cant open,
"the knots"
you really dont know whats going on

this is knowledge
its in the fixed deposit,
you cant cash it b4 the mature time
and only He knows the maturity of the time.
so when we dont even know what knowing is all about how may we share
we cant, i am sorry.

well we do share our experiences,
that is only telling,
nothing else
who goes through it goes through it.

take care
noreen with best wishes

i wish all is well



Monday, December 26, 2005

As I was thinking...how can we differentiate truth from illusion? 

"How can we know what is true and what is illusion?" This morning a response to this occurred to me: simply, "through being shown." In other words, that thing that you don't know will inform you on its own. If you want to know something from the truth, that truth will inform you.

Can we find an example?

An art expert has to decide whether a certain painting is a genuine Renoir or a fake. If it is genuine, its genuineness will inform him. If it is a fake, some sign of fakery will inform him. But how do I find out whether what I feel is just me, or perception?

The fact that it is a subjective feeling does not invalidate it.  Something can be true from one point of view but not from another. This was shown to the children the other day, when they each had to describe what they saw, painted on the sides of a box; they described different things because they were looking at different sides. But if you say about your perception "This is the truth!" then you are under the illusion that this and only this is the truth. Education shows us that each person is right in their belief, but that their understanding of what they have perceived may be faulty.

Sometimes we cannot yet know what we want to know, because this cannot be known from our present point of view. We have to move in ourselves before we can know. So our wanting to know is really a wanting to be moved to a point from which we can see clearly. If so, the ability to distinguish the truth from falsehood is withheld from us so that we do move.

I felt a shining thing when movement was mentioned. The question is not about coming to know something while sticking to one's point of view; it's about movement to that point in oneself where all is clear.

Another thought was, "How can we know what is true and what is illusion?" The reality of the matter is that we cannot know pretty much anything. In this case, knowing may become the enemy of genuine perception of truth.  Perhaps here the question can be more accurately presented as "How can I perceive truth through the fog of illusion”

This came to my mind that there was the metaphor of man as mirror to God. We all know ourselves in the mirror; just as well all have an inherent inclination towards God. Of course, our mirrors have not been polished and our perception is not infallible, but I think few can deny having been faced with "undeniable truth". The character of that experience is the hallmark of a brush with Truth (big T), and the feeling of that experience can be applied to our experiences and perceptions in everyday life. The more we polish our mirrors, the more we work to clear away the obstacles to our perception, the clearer the distinction between truth and illusion become. That distinction is not a matter of knowledge, but simple observation of the reality of the thing.

One can easily consider this being shown, as the mirror shows us our reflection. There is no essential difference. How we perceive, and what we do with that perceptions are of vital importance to our ability to interact with reality in a meaningful way. We need to do everything we can to clear our perception of all its artificial barriers, and deal as best we can with its inherent limitations. Truth is by no means outside the reach of our perception, but it demands both clarity and consistency of awareness to supply it.

Absolute Truth is by any reasonable assessment beyond the realm of human capability, but this does not diminish the nature of the Truth we can perceive.
Happy thinking!
Noreen with best wishes


Friday, January 06, 2006

As i was thinking...2 be or not 2 be
to be or not to be
you have no right 2 choose for yourself
u are born 2 be.
not, not 2 be
& u have all the right 2 fulfill your rights over u than over others
or what others have over u.

this is the way i write.
its not a style i just don't pollute what directly comes 2 me
i am never scared of any thing as long as iam the way i am that is
not lying & no exaggeration.
so that means people are never going 2 enjoy u in your colours
thats bad u have no right 2 deprive them of that what so ever
& this is not Justice 2 your own self even
no use hiding yourself from your self
that is such a coward

alhamdullilah every ones work is done
, He does it not our sharp axe
but its required us 2 be sharp,& sharp our axe
there kmz khawas
khawas has 2 be sharp enough 2 be
u be happy or sit and cry i don't care
u have 2 be yourself that is required of all of us
otherwise u can never bring out a soul in a soul in the true sense bks
u are not true 2 your ownself
and i dont feel sorry on what i am saying
bks we need 2 be what we are
we already have enough of the veils on our heart & soul
but the physical, the appearance ,the true me what ever it is
is just me
& the work is being done on my true self
who gave u the right 2 km 2 me as what u are not
i dont deserve that
have enough of this worldly faces
cant see u if you are not you
no one will eventually

have you ever thought of
why we quit seeing people,meeting people
may that be a loved one
may that be the close one
may that be our shaikh at times
and train us not2 be us anymore
with ourselves with others
this is what it is
at times we are sick and tired of our self
bkz our true self is dying inside ourselves
or fighting 2 km out and we are not letting it out
he wins or we die
100000000000000000s die like this every moment
dont be one of them
let the self km out
be what u are
u are u not your father not your murshad
u are you just u
just u
so be you
just you.

just think of people
or anyone
if they dont want 2 see the true u
than they dont want you
dont want u at all

and who knows who laughs and who cries
deceptive appearances can never make people happy
bks the moment any of your mulakat ever had a mulakat with his ownself
and will km 2 know that u didn't give him or her your true self
they wont let u survive
i don't
that's me i dont know about u
but u must see 2 it ever

kaha sunaa muaaf
bkz this is direct transmission so no part of it could be done otherwise
my flow of talk i don't want 2 cut rather i cant
that's the way i am
and i am not sorry about it bks i don't want 2 pollute with flowery language
but believe u me u will never cry over my speech
no one does ever bkz i dont wish bad at all ever

and sir we need 2 be ourselves
not what ever we or others want of us
bks its seldom that we know of our needs
we are not conditioned 2 know them
lets be
be 2 change the conditioning.

feaman allah
may He shower on u all His blessings the divine way
noreen ,with the way she is
- nino


Wednesday, January 04, 2006As i was thinking...are we infinite 786
do u know?
of course u know
its only i who doesn't know
but then even i was just thinking
Only my thinking makes me finite,infinite?
we are not aware of our certain faculties
so we just say we cant do it
there is no such thing as I CANT DO IT
may it be going through the wall.
walking on water
flying in the air
breathing underwater.
when i become aware of WHAT i am
rather when i am trying 2 know who or what i am .
i become infinite in the process,at times before the process starts,i
am not finite anymore
when we become infinite
we are every where and nowhere at the sametime
what is 2 be?
what and how we must start thinking, what is?
something not present & present anywhere,everywhere at the same time
BUT when we start thinking of infinite we make it tightly finite.
bkz we dont know what infinite, means.
how could we?
when we havent worked on it
we spoil the understanding of the presence of His SIFFAAT.
we dont even know what the Presence really means
how 2 feel the Presence
how 2 work on getting the feel of the feeeling
may be we don't even have the awareness of how 2 be aware of the
understanding of the infinite?

i think for us this much is enough that we are a part of His being
so as HE is infinite ,we can be ,may be.
our existence is nothing but a particlefrom His blow.
and that's that.
we are only less sensitive of our presence & more than less
sensitive of the other presences.
so the little we feel for ourselves or the other we think that's it
actually this is the beginning of the existance for ourselves.
and of course Allah knows the best.

lonely empty space?

the space is never empty either
neither the time
its never lonely
we feel the emptiness,when we are empty ourselves,we see only our
own shadow everywhere except with ourselves
we feel lonely when we cant jump properly into time
the time remains the same ,that is.
the moment is the same
4 us
what we call the time
passes us the same way
as we are passing it
we cant whip the time but
TIME? making us work,through our nose and we pretend we don't know?!!!!

we are still working hard but don't know & we say we are lonely
how can we be lonely when we are with the work that is grinding us
me and the grind makes us TWO.
life?any duration of time is called life
this life b4 life after life all is life but we do not know
why don't we know?
because we don't want 2 know?
what is life? we are not aware of the presence of each moment
every moment is life and we spent one full moment as the moment is
we never regret any life may that be b4,this or after.
because regret never makes us stay and work
work 4 the same.
at the same.so that shows we like this life we say we don't.
this is a very special space where we are
but we are so poor in smelling,or feeling the other,that
may that be my fellow or me
we are not aware of
we say it because we have heard of it
a rose is a rose
when that rose becomes the rose we hardly know it
we do get aware at times
the smell is gone,
that's also nice
we will be with the ones we love
He said
when we leave this place we call home at the moment.

finite. infinite.